Untying Bonds

I feel like a little shit! For holding his hand
For asking him nicely, opening the storage room door to call him back
Spelling it out for him, once, then again
Hailing my bluff
Standing on the wood boards, aged in their years of loitering
The light from the grass framed
Icebox flickered

As our hands let go, Now strangers
Done trying, done striving for the
Oh so over rated silver screen
Selling us red lipped romance
Never to be lived up to, where the world took real form
In the back of cafes, between your silhouette and mine
Below storage room spotlights
Reciting carefully written scripts
“It’s not you. It’s me”

We were no more then one rose in hand
One meek yellow rose in hand
One bleeding hand, one sliced palm
Meant to show commitment but ending up
Leaving lips crystal blue, sunken face, drained of blood
Pooling, running down cracks in the also weeping floor boards
The tie is cut with metallic shears
The vibration of the foot steps
The foot steps
The door to the storage room
Closes
One hollow sound
My feet stay planted
Alone like an unmoved shell
Among crates of milk and flour sacks
Stepping back into my body, with the force of necessity
Try pouring my lungs full of air
And still I was too far from warmth
To make my dear eyelids close

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Love is Ageless

All around the globe,

we sang our songs of grieving

and the pain seeped from our skin.

You were even lovely in the mist of snowfall

and you were adored and cared for

but when your face turned to ash

and all the years became clear.

You were not the angle they had all believed

and so you were left, one bed,

one faded green chair

and two regretful meals a day.

They put you in a home for the old.

On a sign outside, where the pigeons flew over,

it said “Love is ageless” and we knew it was a lie.

Revolution

Wax is dripping from the sky.

The moon carries orphans on its uncensored spine.

It will save Egypt, the dirt and the mothers

and the orphans and the broken down trucks.

It will save them like winding tree branches,

the redwoods that begged for the sky,

hoarding water,

tearing muscle and ribbons

and shattering antique china

embroidered with hammers that brought down the Berlin wall.

I will crave that splitting head ache

and freeze the spinning sky.

Spitting into the kings wine.

Our bleary eyed, sloppy drunk leader,

who could never save the country like I could.

The man with the switch knife,

with a lions face,

with a lobotomy that was supposed to fix the broken mirror,

rupturing with cracks of a revolution.

He will sleep on a park bench,

incased in unformidable laughter.

He will bleed in the shadows of upper-class bathrooms.

Rolling his own cigarets,

turning like spinning wheels,

weaving unconventional thread.

For every window I gave a name.

An idea for every page.

Afternoon naps and uninvited company.

Wings scratched, sewn, brutally tied onto my back

and forced to fly.

A hand for every face to cradle an unblemished cheek.

A silence for every room to fill.

A man for every minute of war.

One arm or leg or young boy from the slums

torn from a half emptied bowl.

Spoons, mettle forks are replaced with a plastic gun,

that will kill no one and defend nothing

but will lay on the oil-drained ground,

next to her first born son,

with a cardboard helmet,

as the scream of life goes horse

and the bodies are daydreams,

and the corpses are summer

and the suits buy a man for every minute of war.

One arm or leg or letter claiming god blessed this earth

and the heavens lurch with a sickness to great to expel.

Posed

You told the mountains, stand still,
So you could paint a picture for the ages.
An orange sky that wanted no end.
Asks only for a cherry frame,
To sit behind her wile her black dresses are folded,
To sink into the sea.
The great sun capsized like a baptism,
Spilling through the curls in his hair.
To die a beautiful death.
To be born again and know only the present.
To stand encased in sheer oxygen.

The air she breathes.

Three Dead Oysters

How can I come to love you?

Learning enlightenment was hard enough.

You left me in the absence of influence

and now who will I follow?

For every pearl there are three dead oysters.

Nothing to Keep out the Cold

Flee worn wooden life.
The clock counts down the minutes.
Old draping yellow thrown
The ancient king sits in it.

All great minds have walked this maze
Pale beneath the sun light.
She holds her wicked eyes
unmoved upon their shoulders.

Autumn came to my back yard
And the leaves rained down like leather.
Vanity fell to the thankless ground.
The naked trees cried to their brothers.

I walked among the bodies of summer
The hardened shells of bees.
I found myself in cold despair
For they had found their peace.

I cradled needless jealousy
For their ceaseless state of sleep.